It’s been such a long time since my last post, more than 30 days ago. I said I tried to practise writing in 30 days, I didn’t complete that. For the last 30 days, I’ve been practising one new thing, in fact, it’s not very “new”. I was practising being lazy again. As a result, after 30 days, I have succeeded in becoming lazy again, lazy in writing and many other things, just except for working. I’m still working hard.
Gradually, I realized I’m just hard working. I changed. I was intelligent and worked much less. Now I became much more lazy in thinking & patient in doing (in a not-so-intelligent way). I’m disappointed seeing that.
I’m losing my systematic thinking skill, I’m losing the ability to plan. I’m always at the deadline of many plans. That made me feel like I had no time to think about it. “Just do it, no matter the result will be, I can handle it” I thought that way, for a very long time. I have practised & improved my improvising skill dramatically. I don’t regret much because I tried hard, moreover, there are also many things that I learnt after such a time like these. However, I decided to change.
I decided to spend the next 30 days for one big purpose: Changing the “me”, into a self-disciplined person.
Here is the plan:
Purpose: Change myself into a disciplined person.
What is it like to be a disciplined person: very simple, I will be able to do all the things I should even if I don’t feel like doing them. There will be no more laziness.
How am I gonna do it:
1. Announce to the world (I’m doing it now)
2. I’ll get rest, eat right. I think they are the things to do because I can’t get myself stabilized with such unstabilized things like “working too much” & “getting rid of the meal”, if I tried too hard, with lack of sleeping & eating at the right time, I would end up exhausted & mess everything up again.
3. Start doing the little things: Morning exercise, Writing everyday, Working as schedule, Travelling. Equally important, I’ll make routines for them.
4. The most significant thin after all is always keeping the determination in mind.
I made a commitment to myself. And every line in the commitment must be executed.
Remembering one quote I read today: “Trust is like a paper, once it’s crumpled, it can’t be perfect again”. So, don’t ever have it crumpled.